From watching the kids fight over wheat thins and sippy cups and thinking about all of the fights they will have in years to come, to packing away baby clothes and wondering if I will ever use them again..
And finally, retirement.
I spent my afternoon in Alexandria Bay. I can't even describe how peaceful, beautiful, and perfect it is.
Right on the water, a bunch of little shops and restaurants...
When I think of where I want to be in 30 years, it is there.
Not only do I want to be there, I can picture myself there. A small, nice home with plenty of space, and a porch and large backyard for when the kids and maybe grandkids come to visit Nathan and I.
Today is my parents' 32nd wedding anniversary.
And I can't help but wonder how ours will be.
Today I realized that I fully intend on being with my husband for the rest of my life. To watch the kids' arguments, silliness, and sweetness with one another. To *maybe* have more children with. And to retire with, so we can spend our days together, always growing older and more together.
I always knew this, I didn't marry with the thought of divorce; Today it just hit me though.
I want to honeymoon, scuba dive, jet ski and snowboard. I want to travel together, golf together, take walks together, have our grown children over for breakfast, and live out my life just enjoying everything about it with my soulmate.
Most importantly, I want it to start now. I don't want to put things off, I don't want to push a single thing back.. not even a day. I don't want to waste any time because we only have a lifetime, and even that isn't enough for me.
It is these
Today I thank you, deployment, for bringing us closer, for making me appreciate what I have, and for giving me something to miss.
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